Jan 14 09

18 months!!!

18 months ago today was the saddest day of my life! There are no words to describe the depth of the sadness.

18 months ago today, the daily battle that we waged ended. We would never hear Andrew’s voice again or feel one of his great hugs.

18 months ago today, a new daily battle began. The battle to survive each day without Andrew physically with us. Every day is so difficult! We miss his beautiful presence so much. The world is not the same without his big smile and his laugh.

18 months ago today, Chris, Ali, and I had to start over and learn how to be a family of 3 in the physical ways of this world while ALWAYS being a “Family of 4″. I am so proud of Chris and Ali; I love them so much.

18 months ago today, a Foundation was born to honor Andrew and God, help other families, and rid the world of pediatric cancers.

18 months may not seem like a long time to some, but for me, it’s 540 days of seeing pain on my wife’s and daughter’s faces. It’s 540 nights of seeing Andrew’s empty bed when I go to bed, 540 quiet mornings, and thousands and thousands of smiles that I don’t see, laughs that I don’t hear, and hugs that I don’t feel.

Andrew, I know you’re still ‘with’ us, but I miss you SO much!!! I love you, Pal!

“I do believe that I have been changed for the better. And, because I KNOW you, I have been changed for good.”

I love you, Andrew!!!

Dad